Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Gentlemen.
The race has been over for several days.
Whatever leftover energy, sadness and guilt or any nonsensical and undesired feelings and emotions SHOULD have drained off.
We didn't win.
I don't shirk away from this fact.
I've been working to oppose this curse for more than a year. I haven't succeeded, but I sure do hope that I've brought 14th towards a new direction. Dominance in the Adventure Quest. We're somewhat near.
Next year, there will be a new batch of leaders. People who have been through the agony of reaping nothing from months of hard work. These people feel the drive to push the entire team to greater heights.
I hope I did.
I started planning for BBAQ way back in June. My drive was the pain of having been disqualified and not even moving an inch out of the start point. We were told we were at Top 10 and the next thing we knew, we were told to move to the endpoint. No reason. And all the way into the Bishan Junction 8 endpoint, Boys in blue polo tees continually asked us, are you the first team?
Does having being disqualified and being mocked all the way and made to go under the finishing line feel good?
That's what made me push aside everything and push for AQ.
I did do some disrespectful things over the span of planning and executing AQ out of my hastiness and annoyance at the slow speed things were done-the officers were slow in responding to my plans to execute AQ.
And for personal glory. And to make 14th known.
With that, I also planned to lead the team to victory. And I know my buddies wanted to be in the team to be on the stage receiving the shiny gold-plated trophy, small but weighty to us.
I didn't succeed.
Whether I suck or not, it certainly didn't help.
I am sorry for my inability and helplessness over the situation at Temasek Poly.
In the relay category, one is often helpless and can only rely on faith and trust for the people of his team in another leg to carry through and pass on the baton of victory to him.
Now, I don't think anyone can be more devastated than me, because I was the one to plan and raise up this elite team and put us through the mock race and 15km run(s).
But our hard work isn't in the drain.
It just builds up towards next year.
The leaders of Adventure Quest '07 will carry on my pursuit towards the day and the moment when 14th Singapore Company may claim 1st in all aspects of the entire race.
Believe me, it is possible. We won't be the first to succeed, but neither would we let others repeat their momentary success.
My advice is, get smart. We took a hit. It hit us pretty hard, but we're still standing and even though we've got some teeth bashed outta our mouths, we'll grow new ones and bite those soon-to-be suckers back hard where it hurts and make sure they can't grow new teeth.
Is it too technical?
It means that yes, we've lost.the battle but not the war. We're damaged in spirit. But we'll recover and even if we lose people in the process, replacements will fill in and once we have the strength back at full, we'll fight again.
Let this be the case for next year and the years beyond.
Song Leng
Boys'Brigade14th 7:15 AM
